I’m a failure at blogging…

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I am a failure at this blogging thing. When I bought the domain, attempted to design the website, and started writing my first post I had every intention of blogging once a week. What a spectacular fail! I am a year in and this is my twelfth blog. But, you know what? I’m ok with that. It’s been a terrible twelve months for everyone and I believe we should allow ourselves some grace. If we didn’t, despondency and regret may be long lasting symptoms of the virus.

To combat my own regret and embarrassment, I’m deciding to view my failure and unreached goals as the starting point for the next season. I didn’t accomplish what I set out to do but I absolutely learned from the attempts I made.

The original aim for this blog is to research and consider what Christ has done for those people who choose to believe in a spiritual sense and what he has done for the greater world in an historical sense. Some of my posts have touched upon this but mostly, I’ve written about what I was studying in the Bible.

As clunky or too-lengthy as my posts may be, they were richly rewarding to study and compile. Every word I wrote served to build upon my foundation of faith. Every thought I had urged me on to another and every post I wrote helped me to clarify my understanding and belief in the Word of God. I may be time-poor and have incorrectly prioritized my daily activities but I have given as much as I could to each post.

To say that I want to post more in my second year is obvious. If I do succeed in that wish or not, that is yet to be written. I’m not the first person to fail at something and, I’m sure you will agree, I won’t be the last. Life is a series of failures and achievements and, as my daughter often reminds me, we are able to learn from our mistakes. Thankfully Christ, who experienced human emotion, grief, pain, and temptation in fullness, is able to make use of all of our failures if we choose to let him. He is after all, our redeemer

“He was despised and rejected—
    a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief.
We turned our backs on him and looked the other way.
    He was despised, and we did not care.
Yet it was our weaknesses he carried;
    it was our sorrows that weighed him down…” Isaiah 53:3-4a

The online Merriam-Webster dictionary defines redeemer as a person who ‘redeems’.
The word redeem means: to buy back, to get or win back, to free from what distresses or harms such as: to free from captivity by payment of ransom, to extricate from or help to overcome something detrimental, to release from blame or debt. It is also to change for the better, repair, restore and to free from a lien (financial charge) by payment. Redeem also means to atone for.

If you are familiar with the character and witness of Christ, you won’t be surprised to know that Merriam-Webster specifically uses Jesus as the example for Redeemer.

“Then they remembered that God was thier rock, that God most high was their redeemer” Psalm 78:35

Easter is upon us. It is a time when the Christian church recognizes and celebrates the death and resurrection of Jesus. It is significant because the world would not have Christianity if the world did not have the resurrection. If there was no resurrection there would be no hope in life eternal life – that God would redeem us to himself. Christians believe by intellect and experience that Christ’s redeeming powers have transformed their lives, thus the reason they believe.

Put like that the Christian theology seems simple, yet convolute at the same time: so many questions! Even the statement that ‘God would redeem us to himself’ sparks off many questions such as: why do we need redeeming, and does God even care?

I don’t plan on addressing such questions in this post, instead I’d like to draw your attention to one recorded encounter a woman had with Jesus in the New Testament for here we see Christ’s ability to love beyond human expectation, prejudice, fear and worry as he transforms a person from ‘failure’ to life.

In this, the longest recorded conversation Christ has with a person, Jesus turns personal failures into fuel for joy. It is a wonderful example of the personal change and experience that Christ offers to those who choose to believe. It is the story of the Samaritan woman at the water well. John 4:1-42

The basic story is this: Jesus happens upon a woman drawing water at a famous well and asks her to provide him with a drink. She wonders why he would ask her and Jesus’ response “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water”, sparks off a conversation that moves from practicality through to theology, confession, faith and eternal life. During the conversation Jesus tells the woman ‘everything she ever did’. When confronted by her own failure, Jesus’ offer of ‘living water and hope’ is the reverse to the condemnation and judgement she was living under. So moved by his love and respect towards her and by his own admission of his status of messiah she rushes back to the village overflowing with joy to rouse her neighbors to come and meet him. When the villagers see her, they agree to go with her to meet Jesus. Upon meeting him they too are convinced and choose to receive Jesus’ offer of the ‘gift of living water’.

It’s a remarkable story where many people’s lives are changed but none so much as the woman.

Up until this point this woman’s life had been marked by failure. In a time when it was important to be married and monogamous she was living with her fifth and unmarried partner. Such lifestyle choices would have negatively affected her social life and status in the village. I’m sure she was the source of much town gossip and rumor; could this be the reason she was alone at the well when Jesus met her? Respectable women would have gone in a group and at a cooler time of day to draw water. Outcasts and victims of gossip, often prefer to avoid and work by themselves. (The story makes no mention of other people at the well, rather it reads like a private conversation between she and Jesus, which is why the assumption can be made that she was alone.)

If she was indeed an outcast, the woman’s return to the village with the intention of bringing people back to meet Jesus shows a remarkable inner change: she was overflowing with love and forgiveness desiring nothing more than to share the joy and hope that she herself had received. She did this in faith and without fear, embarrassment, shame or rebuke from the villagers. Jesus had redeemed her failures and she no longer had to hide in the shadows. The woman believed she was valued, respected, and honored by God. Her failures no longer ‘held her back’ and she could enter into a new identity and calling, which is why she felt confident to share her experience with the villagers. For them to listen to her and respond in such a way, the change within her must have been obviously apparent…and desirable. To them, she appeared a new and different person and they had to see the person who could do such a thing for themselves.

But this seems like such a big change in a person, can such change come simply from a conversation?

Any faith-filled person would say that yes it can however on closer observation it becomes evident that it wasn’t just what Jesus said to her, it was also what he did. In speaking to her, Jesus broke two unwritten, yet serious, social customs and law.

Firstly, he spoke to a woman. Social custom was that men did not speak to a woman they did not know. To do so was an act considered dishonorable and inappropriate. This explains why when Jesus’ disciples return from buying food in the village “they were shocked to find him talking to a woman, but none of them had the nerve to ask, ‘what do you want with her?’”

Secondly, he spoke to a Samaritan. Common Jewish thought and law was that the Samaritans were a people to be avoided and any encounter with one would make the Jewish person ‘unclean’.

The Jews and Samaritans had a very long and complicated history between them. They were very distantly related: the Samaritans were descended from the northern tribes of Israel and Judah remained as the southern tribes. However, over centuries the Samaritans had become their own nation and warred with the descendants of the southern tribes of Israel. They had also intermarried and assimilated with foreign nations and foreign idols. As a result, those Samaritans that clung to their Hebrew faith and long history had different customs, traditions and views about the scriptures than their ‘southern’ neighbors. Such differences, and the history between them, created feelings of prejudice and contempt, thus why the Jews treated the Samaritans as ‘unclean’. (Unclean in the Biblical sense meaning dirty, evil, and causing impurity which required ceremonial cleansing at the the temple.)

Understanding this, can you imagine the surprise the Samaritan woman at the well would have felt when Jesus spoke to her?

How much more surprised would she have been when this stranger spoke to her in such a respectful and intelligent manner? They even discussed theology at the highest degree and it profoundly affected her.

A major difference between the shared faith of the Jews and Samaritans is their understanding as to where the Lord’s Temple should be. The Jews believed God chose the Temple Mount in Jerusalem and the Samaritans believed it to be Mount Gerizem in Samaria.

The woman questions Jesus, desiring to know which belief is correct. His answer is clear and it changes her perceptions of the two belief systems. It also reveals to her God’s ultimate plan for equality and acceptance for all peoples. It is a startling revelation to her, filled with promise and hope. For within it, the woman recognizes Jesus’ call for her to walk free from her failings and come to God as she is, for her future and the future of those around her can belong to God.

Jesus said, “Believe me dear woman, the time is coming when it will no longer matter whether you worship the Father on this mountain or in Jerusalem…But the time is coming – indeed it is here now – when true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth. The Father is looking for those who will worship that way.”

Notice how Jesus doesn’t say that the Father is looking for those with perfect lives to worship him? Instead, Jesus found a person so affected by failure, he asked if that person would like to receive the gift of life that would allow that person to worship God in humility and fullness. That gift is the gift of grace.

In grace, God can redeem all our failures and mold us into the person he created us to be…if we let him.

Onwards, to new beginnings.

Thank you for reading.
May you have a happy and restoring Easter.

Why all the fuss about Christmas? Why all the gift giving? Is it really because of someone’s birthday?

Christmas is days away. In western nations, shoppers are clicking through website after website trying to find that perfect gift, churches are busy preparing and recording their Christmas message, and children are growing in excitement. Even in this Covid-19 pandemic, Christmas is still infectious (pun intended). There’s something about the Christmas tree with its glittering baubles and flashing lights, the catching Christmas carols, and the fun holiday drinks and delicious food. And for the children, the idea that a jolly and generous man travels the entire world bearing gifts is simply irresistible. Santa Claus is coming to town! With such glitz and glamour it’s easy to gloss over the significant religious aspect of Christmas.

A quick internet search suggests that a Roman historian known for his chronicling of Bible dates reasoned that Jesus was born on December 25th. Though not proven, the date eventually came to be accepted and thousands of years later we still treat the day as being significant to Christianity. We honor it as the day that Christ, God’s son, was born into the human race as the greatest gift ever given. It was not enough for God to give us life and creation, He sent His son as a witness and sacrifice so that we could be reconciled with God – His gift was, and remains to be, the gift of truth, love, hope, peace, joy, salvation, and eternity. Santa, for all his marvelous toys, couldn’t possibly deliver something even remotely similar. In fact, Santa himself is free to accept the gift of God if he wants it – and that’s the catch, you have to want it. Sadly, many don’t.

But who is this Jesus anyway? Why the big deal?

A person can have a lifetime of perfect Christmases and still miss the reason and purpose behind the holiday. A person can even live a lifetime as a Christian Believer and still know very little about Jesus and what He has done for the world. I am such a person! In fact, it wasn’t until early 2017 and after my 39th Christmas that I came to realize that I knew very little about Jesus, the person I believed to be the son of God and the light of our salvation. Sure I knew the general stories, having learnt them as a young girl, but as to being able to explain my faith other than by the summation of a few experiences and my ‘gut feeling’ that God is real, I was at a loss. Could I have continued in this manner and still been assured of God’s love for me? Yes, absolutely. Could I have never learned anymore about Jesus and still be confident that He would grant me eternal life with Him just because I believe? Yes, absolutely. But could I be the person God desires me to be and could I carry out his purposes in my life without learning anymore about him? No, absolutely not.

Has the Christmas spirit (the spirit of giving) been wasted on me then? Since I had not bothered to study the instruction manual of the greatest gift I have been given, am I making the best use of this gift?

I once heard it said that ‘Time equals relationship’ – the more time you invest in someone the better the relationship, therefore the less time you invest, the worse the relationship. If faith can be described as more than just believing in God’s existence but as one’s relationship with God, then the quote implies the more time spent with God, the stronger the faith. But perhaps speaking of faith as strength is somewhat misleading? Let’s think then of faith as the solid foundation in one’s life that continues to be built and restored by prayer, time spent reading God’s word the Holy Bible, and by unique godly experiences.

Faith equals relationship with God. But also, relationship with God equals faith.

To live a faith-filled life is to spend time with God. Spending time with God is to spend time getting to know His son. For in Christ lives all the fullness of God (Colossians 2:6). It might be a little tricky to understand if you’re not familiar with Christianity but the concept is that God and Jesus are different in personhood but are one in nature and essence, co-equal and interdependent. To know God, is to love his son. To love the son, is to love the father.

But what does it mean to ‘spend time with God?’ How does someone do this?

The straightforward answer is: reading the Bible, praying, mediating on Him and his word, and meeting with like-minded people to discuss and think upon the things He has done. The complicated answer is in one’ s personal discovery of how to ‘let the message about Christ, in all it’s richness, fill your lives” so that one can “work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord than for people” (Colossians 3:16, 23).

My realization that I did not know much about Jesus coincided with the recognition that my faith and my relationship with God could be described as being as solid as clay, easily muddied with the right amount of rain or turned to dust in a drought. Not the best soil to build anything upon! A feeling, for that really is what it was, can’t be explained to others and it can’t be trusted to remain the same under pressure. The only certainty that I had was that I wanted to have faith, I wanted to trust in God, and I wanted to believe His Word as truth. And if ever asked, I wanted to be able to lovingly discuss my belief and feel confident in my reply. I wanted to know what all the fuss over Christmas was really about! Acknowledging this, I decided, as one way to spend time with God, to ‘Consider Christ’ by reading and learning as much about Him as I could.

So what have I discovered so far? Who is this Christ and what did He do?

Much of my reading and study has coincided with an exploratory reading of the Bible. My aim has been to read the Bible in historical context as well as theological. I’ve sought, and continue to do so, for both the historical Jesus and the Son of God.

Some years later and many books finished, I feel like I’ve only opened the door to Jesus Christ and the spiritual truths and certainties God has offered and promised. Already it’s enough to have changed my thinking and deepened my relationship with God! As a result, God has been repairing and building a solid foundation of faith in my life, slowing replacing the clay with stone and forming me into a new person.

This is what is promised for the person who comes to trust in Jesus: “…anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new persons. The old life is gone; a new life has began” (2 Corinthians 5:17). The promise unfolds in the believer’s heart as God states: “And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart” (Ezekiel 36:26). With this new person and new heart God promises: “I will put my instructions deep within them, and I will write them on their hearts” (Jeremiah 31:33b).

What this all means is that a relationship with Christ has the power to transform your thinking and who you are as God renews and transforms you. It is a two-way relationship for as you “put on your new nature”, Jesus will help you to “know your Creator and become like him” (Colossians 3:10)

To be a christian, to know Christ, is to embrace tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience just as Christ did before us and to put to death those sinful awful thoughts and intentions that lurk within us such as anger, rage, malicious behavior, greed, and evil desires (Colossians 3: 5, 8-9,12) The Christian should be a changed person, free from our past and those things that trap us and stop us from becoming what God intends us to be: people filled with love, peace, and generosity.

I am very much a work in progress when it comes to employing such sentiment on a daily progress however, one remarkable and unexpected way God is changing my thinking and building my faith is by acquainting me with God’s Big Picture: God’s story of redemption and unfailing love towards humanity as depicted across the entirety of the Holy Bible.

The Bible, I am stunned to have learnt, is a collection of 66 books written by different authors over thousands of years that tie together with one ultimate narrative. In it there are various prophecies describing God’s intentions, many of them having already played out in world history, and many more describing the coming Messiah and what his arrival on earth actually means. Jesus, Christians believe, is that messiah. The Jewish faith shares many of the sacred texts with Christianity (what Christians call the Old Testament) however they deny that Jesus is the Messiah.

Though the life of Christ answers many of the prophecies about the coming messiah, just not in the way Judaism may have expected it to, I wonder if refusing Jesus as the messiah has a lot to do about the rejection of Jewish religious custom and less to do with Jesus himself. People are not very good at adapting to change and Christ’s teachings, his claims to be the son of God, and his death and resurrection, challenges and offers a very different way to be in relationship with God.

For the Jewish people a different way to know God meant a different way to live life – gone were the necessary sacrifices to receive atonement for sin for in its place Christ offered himself as the sacrifice for sins. Basically, Christ supplanted the need for Jewish law and religious tradition, offering instead a relationship with God based primarily in grace, repentance, forgiveness of sins, and love.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son so that whoever believes in him will have eternal life” (John 3:16). Whether you believe Jesus is the promised messiah and the son of God or not, it is impossible to argue that Jesus’ life did not change the world. 2000 years later, Christmas continues.

If you’re familiar with the Christmas story, you will know that Jesus was born in Bethlehem and placed into a manger to sleep. There are Bible passages about a bright star in the night announcing his birth, angels speaking to shepherds, and wise men gifting Jesus with expensive and meaningful gifts but aside from that, Jesus arrival was humble and quiet. In fact, the first thirty years of his life was quiet. It was not until he commenced his public ministry, healing, speaking, performing miracles, and challenging the religious leaders at the time that the record of his life truly begins. And all the records we have appear to cover a very brief three years of his life; the three years traveling through the regions of Israel and leading up to this death and resurrection.

Though he was a noted healer and knew the scriptures like no other, it was Jesus’ execution at the hand of the Romans and his resurrection from the grave by God that give meaning and importance to his teachings and example. If this did not happen, it is quite possible that Jesus could have been lost and forgotten in history. Instead, we have a person who claimed to be the son of God and to be the way, the truth, and the life for all humanity, who not only lived a sincere life but conquered death so that we could rest confidently in this new hope that God provides.

It took Christ three years to build his ministry and provide a reference as to what character we should aspire to but it took God three days to change the world by giving us a new covenant (something akin to a legal agreement) and a new way to live.

This new covenant is a new way of relationship with and promise by God that was poured out through the sacrificial blood of Christ. It was given to all humanity so that through him we can be made anew, receive eternal life and restoration with God but also that we may live joyful, hopeful, loving, compassionate and generous lives. Christ’s promise of eternal life is not fulfilled in our lives until we depart earth but his offer to lighten our daily burdens, change our way of thinking and give us a new thoughts and a new way of life is made new every day.
“The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease.
Great is his faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each morning” Lamentations 3:22-23
“For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” Matthew 11:30

The Christmas story, the humble birth of the person who was to bring about so much change in the heavens, on the earth, and in our personal lives, echoes throughout time for all eternity. It is a story that is worthy of our consideration. Regardless of your choice to believe the story or not, Christ’s life demands our attention for he remains the greatest teacher of morality and integrity humanity has ever seen.

If God so loved the world that he gave us his son, then Jesus so loved the world that he gave us love. Jesus radicalized the notion of love and challenged the very heart of humanity; it was no longer enough to love God and love your neighbor, love is now to love your enemies.

When Jesus said this, he was speaking to Jews who were living under violent Roman occupation and oppression and who considered only their close Jewish counterparts as friends. Imagine their shock! Or perhaps it is just as shocking to hear in 2020 when we don’t even like the person with opposing political views to ourselves.
Loving the enemy just seems so counter-intuitive yet it is a cornerstone to Jesus’ teaching and life. “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy. But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you” Matthew 5:43-44

Not only did Jesus say that we should love our enemy, he said that we should ‘do unto others as you would have them do unto you’ (Luke 6:31). Love your enemy and treat them well. And in treating them well, forgive them for the wrong they have done against you. “Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.” Ephesians 4:32

Is it just me, or would you agree that the whole world could do with a lot more love right now? Even before Covid-19 there was much pain, much hurt, much sadness and despair on our planet. Now, everything feels maximized and quite frankly, it’s exhausting and frightening to contemplate. Thankfully, we have a very clear picture of what love is because God used his son to teach us by example. If we did not have Jesus’ love, what would we have? If we had not forgiveness what would we have?

On earth Jesus taught a new way of forgiveness and redemption, speaking of God as the father who cares, and himself as the shepherd who guides and finds his lost sheep. And when Jesus left earth as his resurrected self, conquering death and offering eternity to all those who followed him, his self-sacrifice epitomized love. We call this self-sacrifice because Jesus was wrongly executed. The charges against him were insubstantial to warrant a trial, let alone an execution. He was innocent. Many times in his unjust trial he could have defended himself, however he chose to give up his own life as an act of love.

The ancient world, and God’s law given to the Jewish people, meant that a blood sacrifice was needed for the atonement of sins. When the Jewish people failed at keeping the law, God determined that the only way possible for human redemption was a blood sacrifice so significant that it would alter his relationship and purposes with his people forever. It would be the act to reveal just how much he loves us. As Christ died on that cross he took upon himself our sins so that God would be able to restore us to himself. For sin is like a disease that can rot the person, and humanity, to the core. God no longer wanted to see people like that, He wanted to see His people transformed and made whole (“holy and without blame”) by His own son. (Colossians 1:22)

Jesus loved us so much that he lay down his life. And this is how we know what love really is: “Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters.” 1 John 3:16(NIV)

Lay down our lives for others? It’s the ultimate act of love that only a handful of us might be forced to experience but the concept is worthy of thought. Love is sacrifice.

But what is sin? Does it even exist anymore? And why do people need saving?

I’ve heard it said that sin can be described as anything that gets in the way of your relationship with God. Without providing a solid definition the statement assumes a person has a general moral code and is therefore able to modify his or her response according to the present culture. For example, in recent history it would have been a grave sin for a couple to live together before marriage, now many unmarried christians co-habit. One hundred years from now, marriage may not even exist and the idea that co-habiting was once a sin, might just be reduced to a common joke. Society and culture changes but the word of God does not. In it, we have something called the Ten commandments and I am certain that any deviation of those laws is what God did, does, and will define as sin. One good look at those commandments and it is easy to see why they are important. If we break them, ultimately we hurt ourselves…and the lives of those closest to us. Remember, God is love…and we should love others.

What about those things that muddy the waters of our relationship with God that are not the result of our own sins but rather those done to us? How can a person consider God as a heavenly father when their own father has been of the worst kind? How can a person embrace the freedom Christ offers when they are locked in an abusive relationship? Life is complicated. Our emotions, fears and hurts are complicated. But we need to be able to differentiate between the guilt and shame our own sins bring us and the guilt and shame that others make us feel. Both can soil our relationship with God but the first requires us to seek forgiveness from God and the latter needs us to forgive others.

In western culture there is much hype about pursuing what makes us feel good and happy but often listening to our inner self and abandoning God’s commands makes us miserable and confused. Our culture urges us towards individualism but often it is at the cost of our own integrity and of those we are in relationship with. Sometimes doing what we feel like, something that satisfies our deepest desires, can hurt another person. Even though it feels good to us, if it hurts someone else it should be considered a sin. Sadly, many people live with the deep scars that others have given them and often such pain (and resentment) can hinder a persons life and keep them from trusting in God. We live in a broken world, with broken bodies, broken hearts, broken relationships and broken promises. Many of us have been abused and devalued. Many live with crippling shame, fear, anger, resentment, and hatred. Lives are debilitated by what others have done to them. We live in an unjust and unfair world it is our own broken selves that cry out for justice and vengeance.

Our restless souls and grieving hearts can lead us further down the path that leads to sorrow, or we can choose the path that provides hope, light and peace – the path that Christ has paved for us so that he can “comfort us in all our troubles’ and provide the restitution we long for. The person who finds God is the person who recognizes their own transgressions and desires something more, something beyond themselves, something heavenly. A relationship with God is able to make such hurts and worries bearable as he ‘lightens our load’, ‘heals our hurts’, ‘renews our minds’, and provides all that we need.
“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19

At the heart of Christianity is a person’s desire to be made right with God. Once a person dares to believe in the goodness and possibilities with God, our iniquities make it impossible for God to be in relationship with us for who is equal to God? What person can claim to be perfect, loving and fair? What person can create by command? What person can be accepted by God without Christ’s representing him or her? The theology is clear: Jesus was sent to ‘make us right’ in the face of God, to forgive us our sins and offer a relationship with the Most High.

To have relationship with Christ is to humbly acknowledge that we have done many wrong things, to understand that our hearts are full of evil desire and intent, and to seek forgiveness turning away from those things (sins) that cause harm to God, to others, and to ourselves as we invite Christ to be a part of our lives.

Many churches encourage a simple prayer: ‘God forgive me for all I’ve done wrong and please come into my life and make me a new person.’
This prayer paves the way to the healing, positive changes, and blessings that God promises to those that believe in him. And, as we grow closer to Christ by spending time with Him we become more like Him in character. In doing so we, in spirit and by choice are able to move further away from the emotional confines and trappings of the world we live in. As our old selves and our past history are cast off in God’s forgiveness and reconciliation with us, we can be confident that we are made new and given a new identity and purpose.

Appointed as the salvation and judge for all people, and sent to earth in the form of a human subjected to grief and suffering like no other, Christ’s life stands as testimony and example of a God who loves his people and creation deeply. He is a God who aches for the relationship and trust of his own created mankind. God decided that Jesus is the way to God, the truth of God’s love and purposes, and the life God wants us to imitate.

When Christ died and was resurrected God’s love proved to be unfathomable and unfailing, able to reach all mankind and in all it’s darkest places. It is this example, the radical notion to ‘love your neighbor’ and ‘love your enemies’, that became the basis, the foundation and the hope of a new movement that would eventually spread across the globe. If Jesus were just some guy, we would not know about him. Instead, we have civilizations forged from the moral reasoning that is the fabric of the Christian ideology and institutions that were created to be witness to God’s love in service to others.

As christianity grew, God’s group of believers known as the church took the idea of love and service literally and created the first ever hospitals, schools and universities; the very institutions that make up the fabric of our societies. The church also promoted the christian philosophy that ‘all people’ are created equally and should therefore be treated equally. (Albeit, we still get this very wrong – good intention should not be forsaken for money and power but it always is. )

In the beginning when God created man and woman, he created them in his image, equally valued and equally loved. When Jesus came to earth his mercies, love, blessings, forgiveness, peace and joy flowed out to men and women equally, signifying there is no longer male or female but rather we are all made one in Christ Jesus. Jesus’ unifying vision has not played out so well in humanity but the theme is central to its theology – in christ there is forgiveness and acceptance for all persons who chose to follow him. There is love and blessings for all persons. There is hope and a future for all persons. There is peace and joy for all persons. There is a relationship on offer with the Most High for all persons. For God so loved the world…

Such a radical concept, and only just one of Jesus’ many statements, makes for a character so ingrained with world history that a time will come in your life when you will need to consider what he means to you and what he means to the world. We can not escape his presence nor his teachings for his word continues to pervade societies, cultures, and nations as the concepts of ‘love your neighbor’ and ‘love your enemy’ shake even the hardest of hearts

Is there any other character in the history of the world who has changed the world like Jesus?

In a world that no longer understands or values truth, the Christian belief and it’s exclusive claim to the way, the truth, and the life can either be a guiding light or a threatening flame to an unbeliever. In conversation, sometimes that opinion is pre-determined by the unbeliever and other times the outcome can be determined by the words and actions of the christian. Either way, our faith in God should not be kept hidden; for we believe that faith in Christ is a positive transformation to both the individual and for the world. In Him, peace and joy are made possible. In Him we find our hearts softened and changed as we learn to be and to give the same kind of love, grace, acceptance, and forgiveness that he bestows unto us.

We continue to celebrate Christmas for we know that Christ, in this life, offers us a new life: a new way of thinking and a new way of living, and in the next: eternity in a perfect heaven.
There is no other being or relationship on earth that can provide either, or both. You yourself can not change your life for the better like He can. And you yourself can not add even a second to this life you have been given. “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” (2 Corinthians 5:17)

So, this Christmas as you unwrap presents or as you watch your children delight in the gifts from Santa, take a moment to consider why we give gifts in the first place: for the greatest gift we can receive has first been given.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I hope that it encourages you.

May you have a wonderful joy-filled Christmas.

I could never have imagined I would do something so silly in front of my new (non-believing) friends…

In February 2019 my family and I moved to the Illawarra region in NSW, Australia. It was meant to be a very temporary stay as we prepared to move where my husband’s work was to take him next.  However, due to the virus, we are still here. I could never have imagined I would live here for so long! I suppose, around the world as we navigate this Coronavirus, millions of people are experiencing similar sentiment: “I could never have imagined…!” 

I must confess: I did not like this town before living here.  As a child I spent many Sundays here visiting my grandparents in their small apartment across the road from the beach. The weather was always a bother. It was either awfully windy, the kind of wind that causes the sand to ‘bite’ your legs, or it was pouring with rain. In summer the tidal surf, made worse by the wind, was  dangerous, so swimming even on a very hot day was unpleasant. I did not romanticize the area at all so the idea of staying here long-term didn’t excite me. But, as it turns out, God knew better. I can see that God brought us here with intention and purpose and it has been one of the most rewarding (and confronting) times of my life. It’s the friendliest town I’ve ever lived in and as a result I’ve made more new friends than I ever thought possible. And once I came to accept the wind as it’s own character, I have come to see the certain charm and true beauty to the place. 

Regrettably, If I had known that I was to be here for over a year, maybe even two, I would have put more effort into making friends during those first weeks and months but then I don’t really think it would have mattered: people here are so nice!  Also, with the town being a little over one hour train ride from Sydney, there’s a steady flow of new families into the area eager to make new friends. I now have a local circle of friends and acquaintances far greater than I ever could have imagined. It’s going to make it tough to leave!  Eighteen months ago I did not realize that God would reveal his promise in Romans 8:28 to me so succinctly:  “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” 

The more I read the Bible the more I learn that God is all-caring and loving. He knows what we need (even when we don’t) and he plans how to meet that need.  (Some examples of God doing this can be found in the lives of Abraham, Jacob, Moses, Elijah, David, Esther, Mary, Peter and Paul.) Before moving here I was not aware that I lacked connection with people and that I needed to make new friends and work on my social skills. I had forgotten that I used to be more of a people person (Having four children close together in a foreign country (USA) can be isolating). But God knew! Psalm 138:8 says: ‘The Lord will work out his plans for my life’. As God makes his plan work out in our lives, He often reveals ideas, beliefs, pain, fear, or worry that may be hindering our character from becoming more Christ-like. For me, God has cleverly used my new friendships to reveal the fear and discomfort I have about revealing and discussing my faith in the most embarrassing way. 

“That’s my son. His name is Isaiah. But we’re not religious at all. In fact we’re atheists”, is what Isaiah’s father said to me when our children happened to play together at the beach. His atheist beliefs didn’t surprise or shock me but the manner in which he made his statement did. It was said in such a matter-of-fact way I wasn’t sure what my reaction should be. Mostly, there’s either a hesitance or confrontational sound in people’s voices when they mention religion but Isaiah’s Dad said it in the exact same way he discusses the weather (and I know this, for my family has now spent much time with his).  I was taken aback because he had no emotional connection to what he said. I however, felt so thrown about his unexpected admission, I was rendered silent. I said not a word.

Recently, I have come to think what a strange statement it was to make for unless a person knows there is an Isaiah in the Bible, the name wouldn’t raise any eyebrows. Either this man had some association with Christianity in his earlier life or he has met with braver christians than I whom have questioned his faith connection when they hear his child’s name? I’m going to guess it is the latter. I’m also going to guess that Isaiah’s Dad does not want to be associated with religion and that he has made this simple matter-of-fact statement many times before because he has not yet come across a Christian who questions him on it. He is trusting, and assuming, that most people around his age are faithless. 

Isaiah’s Dad is not the only person in this town to have woven into generalized, and unrelated, playground chit-chat their atheist and agnostic beliefs. Every time it is brought up, I note my reaction: their confession makes me nervous! I find myself nodding along, smiling politely, and doing everything I can to disarm myself from any potential conflict and conversation. I don’t want them to talk about their lack of faith because I don’t want to talk about my growing faith! I feel myself become anxious because I am very aware that I don’t want to say or do anything that might offend them. Yet, here they are, brazen in their speech with the assumption that I must agree with them, because in their mind there’s no way that I could be one of those ‘silly brainwashed people’ who could believe in such a thing as God, particularly the Christian God.  In such circumstances, I do the one thing I want to do: I change the subject. 

Would it surprise you to know that these ready-to-confess atheists and agnostics make up the majority of my new friends? If this is a trend or just the way the western world is going, I’m not sure. However, Jesus does wonder if he will find the faith at all on earth when he returns (Luke 18:8).  

Are you familiar with the verse in Mark 8:38 that says:  “If anyone is ashamed of me and my message in these adulterous and sinful days, the Son of Man (Jesus) will be ashamed of that person when he returns in the glory of his Father with the holy angels”? I am. I’ve known the verse for quite some time and still, I hide my faith. 

You might be very kind and wish to come to my defense in thinking that changing the subject is not a shameful act! Surely, you might say, isn’t it better and wiser NOT to challenge the atheist beliefs of those people we spend occasional time with THAN appear like a bully Bible basher -someone who forces the beliefs of the Bible on someone else?  Don’t Bible bashers only confirm the suspicions and prejudices non-believers have about us, thereby making the salvation of the unbeliever more difficult? Isn’t it better to show our faith by the way we live than what we say? Jesus did say that ‘it is by their fruits that you shall know them” (Matt 7:20) and if that’s true, why not stay silent when someone brings up the subject of faith, particularly when my the answer might make me look bad…or dare I say it, dumb?

It is absolutely true that we should act out our faith and that our lives should reflect the very character of Jesus so that we can be a blessing to our brothers and sisters in Christ and serve as example to our non-believing neighbour. God created us to be set apart from the world (LEV 20:24) so that we live as witnesses to God’s truth and goodness.  But what about those times it feels inconvenient or embarrassing to live set apart What about when it’s just easier and less controversial to just go with the crowd? What if keeping silent, or ‘hiding our light’ (Luke 11:33) means that people will like me more, that I will fit in? Surely that’s ok? God doesn’t want me to be lonely, right? What if I just fit in now and then pray about it later? It’s too hard, too awkward, too embarrassing to talk about God in front of my friends! None of them agree with me anyway, and what if they don’t like me as a Christian? 

I confessed at the beginning of this blog that I didn’t like the town I was to live in, so let me confess something really embarrassing now: I cringe at the thought of my new friends seeing evidence of my faith. It’s one thing to say I’m a christian, it’s another thing to have evidence of how seriously I take my belief. The simple acts I’ve done speak deeply about who I am:  I’ve hidden my Bible and other books about Christianity when non-believers have come to the house, I’m always embarrassed by the cross hanging on the wall that is visible from the front door, and I’ve shut the door so that anyone passing by the house won’t hear the Hillsong worship songs I’m playing.  It’s a real effort I have made to hide evidence from my new non-reliving friends? Is this an act that ultimately shows I am ashamed of Christ? Yes. Absolutely. He knows my heart. He knows exactly what it is. The reality is, and what God has shown me, is that I’ve been keeping my faith secret my entire adult life.  Thankfully Mark 8:38 serves as a warning to me. 

There is irony here too, it’s not all bad and embarrassing. Though I make effort to hide the little light I have and cower at the prospect of entering into a faith discussion with my friends, this has also been a time of such growth of faith and knowledge. I could never have imagined that I would read and love God’s word so voraciously. I could never have imagined that the scriptures would begin to make so much sense.  I could never have imagined that with my Christian friends I now speak about God, His Holy Spirit and His Son so openly with passion and conviction. I could never have imagined the swelling of my spirit within. And, I could never have imagined that I would dare to blog about any of this before either! So, what’s up? How can someone be such a contradiction? 

This week I read John chapter 7 and  God in his eternal wisdom, opened my eyes to verses 12-13:  “There was a lot of grumbling about him (Jesus) among the crowds. Some argued, “He’s a good man,” but others said, “He’s nothing but a fraud who deceives the people.” But no one had the courage to speak favorably about him in public, for they were afraid of getting in trouble…

There’s nothing new about the controversy of faith! Jesus is as controversial now as he was then! There’s always been people who openly dis-believe and there’s always been people who hide their belief in fear! Jesus said himself that he did not come to bring peace, he came to cause division, to ‘render judgement – to give sight to the blind and to show those who think they see that they are blind.’ (John 9:36) Must admit, it is a relief to know that I am not the only one but it is also terrifying to think of how many people stay silent when they know the truth. 

Another example of being to afraid to show faith is in John 9. Verses 20 -24 describe the actions of parents who are brought into the synagogue to confirm that their son whom Jesus had miraculously given sight to, was actually born blind.  They are able to confirm this but when asked how his eyesight was suddenly made possible, they defer the answer to their son because they are too afraid to say what they know and believe. “Ask him” they say “He is old enough to answer to speak for himself.” The Bible is very clear in the explanation as to why they do this in verse 22: “His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who had announced that anyone saying Jesus was the Messiah would be expelled from the synagogue” 

It’s apparent then, that since the beginning of Christ’s ministry on earth right up to now people have been afraid to speak their faith…for fear of consequences. 

This I now know to be very true of myself. Though I am delighting myself in the scriptures, relishing reading His Word, and honored to feel His presence in my life, I am deeply afraid of being ‘the christian’ to my new friends. What Christian means to my friends is another discussion but for the purposes of today’s blog, let’s just take it as it is; a person who believes in Christ.

To clarify my fear a little more: I’m not ashamed of my faith and I’m certainly not ashamed of Jesus, his message, miracles, life and resurrection, I’m embarrassed to be known as Christian first because I am in fact, afraid of the questions my new friends may have. I’m afraid of how I am going to act, what I am going to say. I’m afraid of the conversation because deep down, I am afraid of what God is going to say through me. I don’t mean that I will get all preachy or rain down fire on them, not at all;  God always wants us to responds to people in love.  But I think that in his strength and light and, as my weaknesses and failings are made known to me, I am more aware of the importance and relevance of his message.

There’s another thing I think I might be afraid of: to speak is to become the person God wants me to be and I’m not sure I’m ready yet! There’s so much I don’t know. Surely, it’s better for me to be well prepared and equipped with knowledge and experience before I tackle the topic of God and faith with anyone, right? Wrong! Absolutely wrong. 

I am ready now. You are ready now. For the Word of God in Luke 21:15 says not to worry: “I will give you the right words and such wisdom that none of your opponents will be able to reply or refute you!” 

That’s the NLT translation. Here it is in other interpretations just so there is no misunderstanding:  The NIV: “for I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict”.  Now the ESV: “for I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which none of your adversaries will be able to withstand or contradict. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my confession, embarrassing as it is. I know that what I have to do is simple: stop hiding!  Leave my Bible out to be seen,  keep the doors open when I play Hillsong Worship and then pray without ceasing when, if ever, one of my new friends asks me about what I’m reading (currently Knowing God by J.I Packer). For most certainly, God will answer their questions through me, without fear and with much love.  Jesus did say in Matt 9:37 that “the harvest is great but the workers are few.”

My prayer for you, for me, is that when the time comes, we are counted among the workers.  

If you have something similar to share, please do so at the bottom of this page in the comments section. Thank you!

Anyone else feeling tired and overwhelmed? They say it’s ‘quarantine fatigue’ but I’m not so sure…

Is it just me, or have you been feeling fatigued and weighed down by the worries of the world? Are you experiencing days when you wake up and wish that it were already time for bed? Does it feel near impossible to focus on a simple task for work? Are you not able to motivate yourself, let alone all the people that rely on you at work or at home? Or, perhaps even more frustrating, can you not do your job because the person you rely on, simply doesn’t have the energy or direction to do theirs? If only it were already 2021, right? 

Do a quick internet search on ‘quarantine fatigue’ and you will see article upon article discussing our collective feeling of tiredness and how best to beat it. The sheer number of articles, linked articles, nested articles, blogs, tweets etc. on the topic is fatiguing to think of. This tiredness, it’s too much. Coronavirus is too much. Everything feels like too much. ‘God how long can this go on? Can’t you see it’s crippling me, crippling everyone?’ 

Having experienced the physical fatigue that often accompanies Covid-19, the kind of tiredness that keeps you in bed all day as the body aches and the headache feels like it’s teetering on the edge of explosion, what I feel now is something very different. I wonder if what I am feeling is not ‘quarantine fatigue’ but grief. 

Grief, as defined by my Apple Pages writing software, is ‘deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone’s death.’  To define it further: sorrow is ‘a feeling of deep distress caused by a loss, disappointment or other misfortune suffered by oneself or others, and distress is ‘extreme anxiety or pain’.  I do not doubt that I, and much of the globe’s population, as we watch our nations, families, and friends lose loved ones and face unemployment, social unrest and upheaval, we are living through a prolonged period of grief…and, until that elusive vaccine, there is no end in sight. Could the entire world be living through a period of grief? 

For me, my tipping point was the death of George Floyd at the hands of a Police Officer in the United States and the subsequent protests, violence and looting. Then seeing businesses burning that I would frequent in Los Angeles up in flames; it broke me. For I saw the deep scars, pain, hurt, anger, despair, rage, and grief of an entire community of people ripped open and laid bare. The truth can not be denied: we are a broken people living in a broken world. And Coronavirus, our unseen enemy, makes ground every day. Our cries for justice, our grief, is surely heard throughout the universe. For we are ‘exhausted and completely crushed. (our) groans come from an anguished heart. (Psalm 38:8) 

Until today, I have not been able to bring myself to blog. And even now, I still don’t know what to say. I am as lost for words as I am in thought. I have no answers. No solutions. I am but a small voice in an increasingly loud world. What, if anything, could I blog about that might encourage you? That might bring you peace? That might inspire you to read God’s word? That might be an answer, or insight, into an unspoken question you have? How could I possibly think that I could be a little of a light to you when the world that we knew crumbles beneath our feet and nothing seems to make sense? I have been overwhelmed with sadness, with confusion, with grief. It’s not just because of injustice, it’s everything. And I’m going to guess that you feel it too. 

I did make a few attempts to blog. I have been reading about King David and King Saul. I finished the books of Matthew, Mark, Judges, and Joshua, as well as reading most of the Book of Psalms. There’s a lot of topics I could have chosen to blog about but nothing felt appropriate. Personally, I was encouraged by David’s years in the wilderness and, as it touched on a previous post of mine (Is it just me or does isolation feel like a wilderness?), I could have easily written something about it – Specifically that David spent about a decade in the wilderness running for his life even after God (and Samuel the Prophet) had anointed him as the next King of Israel – talk about a long time waiting for an answer to prayer! I found many Psalms of David to be relevant and encouraging (honestly, given his struggles and persecution, his songs and poetry are extraordinary), but I still couldn’t bring myself to write.  

So why today? Why is today so different? Well, I think it’s because I am finally able to recognize, to define, what it is that we are all going through. It’s not fatigue, it’s grief. We’re grieving loss that our generation has not known before. Lost jobs, lost health, lost lives, lost childhood, lost economy, lost connections with family and friends, lost education, lost birthdays, lost weddings, lost funerals, lost church, lost entertainment, lost travel, lost opportunities, and lost freedoms. We’ve also managed to lose faith in the democracies and nations of the world we live in. Nothing is certain. All is unknown. Together we cry out for God’s help and together we can weep and mourn for ‘Morning, noon and night (we) cry out in our distress and the Lord hears (our) voice.’ (Psalm 55:17.) 

So, I’ve cut myself some slack for not being able to blog. For, in periods of grieving, it is better not to say anything and just listen.

Listen and pray. 

Listen to my prayer, O God. Do not ignore my cry for help! Please listen and answer me, for I am ovewhelmed by my troubles.’ (Psalm 55:1-2)

Pray for our world leaders. Pray for God’s presence to be found and known. Pray for revival. Pray for God’s will to be done here as it is in heaven. Pray for healing. Pray for peace. Pray for the families of those who have lost love ones. Pray for those who are sick. Pray for a vaccine….the list goes on. 

God is listening. He is waiting for us to seek him. He wants us to trust him. He desires for us to be in relationship with him so that, and because of, ‘God’s tender mercy, the morning light from heaven is about to break upon us, to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, and to guide us to the path of peace’. (Luke 1:78-79.) 

Sometimes I think the God in the Old Testament can’t be the God in the New Testament. Who is he? What is his character? Did he change?

I recently began reading J.I Packer’s book Knowing God. I didn’t get far into it before I was confronted with the statement ‘Those who know God show great boldness for God’. Summing up my existence and ‘slow burn’ christian faith, I realized that I don’t know God at all. Yes, I know stories of Jesus and the Old Testament (OT) but I really don’t know who God is. I suppose a reason for this is that I have always felt more akin and comfortable with the God whom Jesus reflects and speaks of; ‘God is love’ (1 John 4:8). But the other God, or the other version of God in the OT, him I’m not so sure about. Verses like Joshua 7:15, ‘(the sinner)…will be burned with fire, along with everything he has (meaning his entire family), for he has broken the covenant of the Lord and has done a horrible thing in Israel’, cause me distress. How could this ‘all loving, all caring God’, do this? Surely, this is not the ‘father’ that Jesus reflects and prays to? 

Various violent acts and absolute statements in the OT can leave many christians stumped. I know of people who no longer, or who have not read, the OT. I also know people who are lost for words when asked by unbelievers to explain the OT and why they would ever believe in a such God. I also know believers (and in this case I’m one of them) who are reluctant to show their faith at all in the presence of, what I would call, an evangelical atheist. I admit it, I am not bold in faith at all. But I’d like to be. So who is this God? Did he change or is the same? How do I reconcile these apparent two versions of God? And where, if at all, can I find the link in the Bible?

In a previous post, I briefly touch on how the life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ changed how we live and how we view each other. In him we learnt to love our neighbor as ourselves, to lay our life down for others, to turn the other cheek, and that we should behave peacefully and respectfully to all for God is love. So we then, should love one another. Christ and his teachings provided cohesion to the world. For from this point in time, civilization evolved in this framework and now we feel that sending armies to conquer a land and destroy it’s inhabitants is horrific (to say the least). Our thoughts, our ethics and morals have changed. Prior to the coming of Christ (and I’m still studying all of this so I won’t give an in-depth answer for now), the world was a very violent, waring place with no human rights or laws in place to protect the vulnerable. So to read the OT is to step back to a time that is difficult for us to comprehend or empathize with. The books and events wherein could not be more disturbing, alarming, baffling, different, and peculiar. Yet, the more I read of it, the more similarities I can see in God’s character as we know of him from the NT; the more I can recognize the God I am familiar with, and the more I agree with the statement in Malachi 3:6 ‘I am the Lord, and I do not change’.  It is a liberating and bold thing to know. 

Have you ever read the Psalms? It is a book of poetry and song written to worship God and it is written a long time before the birth of Jesus. In it, the authors use the most expressive and heartfelt emotion to describe their relationship with God, their sins, their longing, and their love towards a God they know to have ‘unfailing love’ for them, whom they call their ‘rock and salvation’, and who they describe as ‘trustworthy’, ‘gracious and merciful’ and as a ‘shelter’ worthy of all praise. Sounds a lot like Jesus and his father, right? The Psalmists also cry out to God for him to ‘Punish the wicked…(and) Break the arms of these wicked, evil people! Go after them until the last one is destroyed…The godless nations will vanish from the land.’ (Psalm 10: 13,15,16b)  Um…what the heck? Obviously, they live in a very different time to us!

Does it surprise you, as it did me, to know that the Psalmist, in this case King David, was referring to the God of the OT, the God pre-Jesus, and the God as described in the Pentateuch, the first five books of the Bible? How did King David get this version of God? How did he see God as having unfailing love when God wiped a generation of Israelites off the planet for disobeying him? King David knew something of God that we can easily forget. He knew that God was just. He knew that God commanded obedience. He knew God to be compassionate and gracious. He knew that God demanded purity and reverence. Mostly, he knew that he himself was full of sin. And in those days, sin and disobedience were dealt almost immediately. In contrast, in our post-messiah-arrival world, we now wait for God to bring justice to the oppressed, to the wronged, and to the faithful – which he promises to do at the end of time. Until then God is giving the world time for the Kingdom of God to grow; for the full measure of those who will call Christ Lord.  

The prophetic description of judgment in New Testament is reminiscent of the violence and death we see in the OT. John 12:48 is blunt: ‘But all who reject me and my message will be judged on the day of judgment by the truth I have spoken.’ Romans 2:5 is terrifying: ‘But because you are stubborn and refuse to turn from your sin, you are storing up terrible punishment for yourself. For a day of anger is coming, when God’s righteous judgment will be revealed.’  

In the NT, for those people who do not love and follow Jesus, God’s son, Jesus wasn’t and isn’t always peace and love. In the OT, for those people who do not obey God and ‘brazenly violate the Lord’s will…have blasphemed the Lord and they must be cut off from the community. Since they ave treated the Lord’s word with contempt, they must…suffer the punishment for their guilt? (Numbers 15:30) Spot any similarity? Would God, if he was different say practically the same thing over 2000 years later? There is solidarity in the Word of God if you look for it. (There’s also a lot more blessing, love, goodness, and grace than God smiting the sinner if you’re taking a tally.)

Reading four consecutive chapters a day from a variety of books (today it was Deuteronomy, Joshua, Psalms and Matthew) I have been able to perceive the piecing together of one giant story.  From the beginning to end, Genesis to Revelation, God is recognizable as the same God.  He does not change. The world he operates in may change, but he does not. In being able to discern this, I am beginning to see his full character. He is, at once, loving and just; for to be loving and gracious is to be just. His unfailing love for his people is to be jealous for their affection. To demand obedience is to shelter and protect. To love is also to hate sin – the very thing that makes us unclean in God’s eyes. To send His very own son to bear the burden of sin is to provide grace – an undeserved grace. To kill then, can be to save.

God’s offer of salvation through Jesus Christ is available to everyone for God is love. And for you and I as we choose to trust and love Him, in our efforts to desire to know Him more we need to understand live out Christ’s directive: Love your neighbor for ‘anybody that does not love does not know God.’ (1 John 4:8)

This world we live in is crying out for love, for more of God’s presence and love. As we love and respect each other, we can be God’s light to each other and in turn, God will reveal more of himself, his heart, to us and to those that we serve. 

(Please note that I am not a theologian or an historian, just an average person trying to make sense of all of this. I am however, trying to read as much as I can on the topic discussed. Thank you.)

My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts

Isaiah 55:8-9

If I could remember to ask God to bless me with a good memory, maybe I wouldn’t keep forgetting that God promises to be my rock, my comfort, my guide, my teacher…um, what else?

In the days before the Israelites finally enter the promised land, Moses speaks at length to the people recounting what God has done for them, describing what God will do for them, and what they must to do remain in God’s blessing. He tells them to, “Remember how the Lord your God led you through the wilderness for these forty years, humbling you and testing you to prove your character…to find out whether or not you would obey’ (Deuteronomy 8:1-2), and ‘…Recognize today that the Lord your God is the one who will cross over ahead of you like a devouring fire to destroy them (the inhabitants of the land whom God knows to be wicked). Then Moses asks ‘Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you? He requires only that you fear the Lord your God, and live in a way that pleases him, and love him and serve with all your heart and soul. And you must obey the Lord’s commands and decrees that I am give you today for your own good.” Remember, Recognize, Required.

As I continue to read the book of Deuteronomy I wish that I began to take note of how many times the Lord, through Moses, urges the people to Remember, for it is often. Here are three: “Remember and never forget how angry you made the Lord your God in the wilderness. From the day you left Egypt until now, you have been constantly rebelling against him (Deuteronomy 9:7), “Remember that the Lord rescued you…in order to make you his very own people…(Deut 4:20), “…Remember this and keep it firmly in your mind: The Lord is God in both heaven and on earth, and there is no other (Deut 4:39).  It seems then, that God knows human memory is limited, but his desire for us to remember what he has done in our lives is infinite. 

Does this mean that if we remember what he has done, it will be easier for us to recognize him currently at work in our lives? Remembering who he is, who he says to be and what he did for us personally, is the best way to relax in this moment as we look for the signs and recognize that he is working for us today.  Can God really be at work, for the good of those who love him, during this very frightening and uncertain time millions of people are out of work, sick, and afraid? Why doesn’t he just end this now? 

I wonder, as the Israelites looked over the promised land, did they wish that God would just immediately give them land? For they knew that to get this land they would have to fight in hand to hand combat to get it. Could there have been some people, who would have rather returned to Egypt? I am sure there would have feen fear and anxiety amongst them, they are after all, only human. But God tells them to recognize that he went before them, that he is at work in their lives, basically wanting them to trust him, no matter how hard and long this time will be. 

While he’s working out our lives for our good, for that’s what he says he will do for those who love him, and that’s what you can see he’s done in your past, all he wants us to do is love, trust, and obey – as in do what his word says.

So, as you remember what God did for the Israelites and the miracles he did for them, what can you personally remember about God and what he has done for you? And right now, in the middle of this pandemic, what can you see God doing? Can you recognize his love? Can you recognize his goodness? It may be in something small, like a phone call or text message from an old friend, or the kindness of a nurse or doctor, or the promise of getting back to work sooner than you thought. Or can you recognize God at work in someone you love? Can you see their heart and mind turning to thoughts of God at this time? Or are you being ‘God recognized’ for someone else as you serve them? We are many people and God is at work in many ways. What then, do you think God requires of you right now? Aside from loving, trusting, and obeying, is there something that God keeps putting in your mind, something that you should probably do but just haven’t yet? 

As for me, I don’t have an awe inspiring testimony to remember; a moment like the apostle Paul experienced as he was on his way to persecute Christians when Jesus appeared and in an instant changed his life (and the course of history for Paul’s writings make up a large portion of the New Testament). My faith journey is one of slow burn with a little bit of revelation here, a prayer spoken over there, and a good sunset or two around that world that inspired me to think more of God and his purposes. But there are times that I can remember God at work in my life. In recent years I have seen and felt God’s guidance and assurance over my life and the lives of my family members as we grieve through the sudden and tragic death of my brother Paul. And now I can recognize God at work in the spiritual and personal disaster that has come in the wake of Paul leaving earth. Also in all of this mess, and the disaster that is Covid-19, as I read God’s word I have come to know what God requires of me today – to love him, to read about him more, to serve him (thus the blog – I really am a reluctant blogger but for some unknown purpose I feel compelled to do this), to trust him always, and obey his commands he so clearly makes known in his word…for my own ultimate good. But mostly, Remember who he is.

These truly are alarming and worrying times. No person or expert really knows how this Coronavirus pandemic is going to end, nor what we have to go through to reach that day. It can feel as if the world is teetering on the edge of collapse. It can feel hopeless. We all know that we all feel isolation to an extreme. So what now? What can we do? Worry? I pray not. God said three things to the Israelites and he says it to us today: Remember, Recognize, and Required. As we remember how he has helped us in time past and we recognize him and the work he is doing in our lives now, all we are required to do is love, trust and obey him today. We only have today. 

So don’t worry about these things…but your heavenly Father already knows all of your needs. Seek the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you every thing you need.

So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s troubles are enough for today.

Matthew 6:31-34 NLT

I find some of the stories in the Bible so disturbing. Is it bad for my faith to question them?

There’s something about the Bible. It is capable of evoking joy in those that choose to believe it or it evokes anger in those that choose to discredit it. Oftentimes, it can evoke anger and joy in those who believe it too. Most of us modern day thinkers find many chapters (or the entire thing) in the Old Testament too terrible to comprehend. Much of the old testament speaks of brutal war, murder, rape, plagues, sin and sorrow. The Israelites were themselves brutal in their conquering of their enemies as they took hold promised land. In Deuteronomy 3:6-7 Moses, the author of the book, puts it bluntly: ‘We destroyed all the people in every town we conquered – men, women and children alike. But we kept all the livestocks for ourselves and took plunder from all the towns’.  In my opinion that is horrific, barbaric, and wrong! I am forced to ask ‘what kind of God could do that?’ And, if I take this further, I must consider if a God like that is really God at all because shouldn’t God be all about loving thy neighbor?

Somewhere along my journey of faith, perhaps when I heard Pastor Rick Warren of Saddleback Church in the United States say that it is ok to have doubts, I came to realize that it is good to have questions too. In fact, more than that, it is essential to have questions, to mediate and think about God and what all of this means. Questions and doubt are not something to fear or to feel guilty about. It is part of who we are and how God made us. The intelligence he gave us is to, first and foremost, think.  And in our thinking and questioning we should not feel the need to hide from our christian friends, pastors, leader and churches. They too should not shy away from the deep questions we ask for there is opportunity for everyone to grow in faith and knowledge. Questioning God isn’t an act of doubt, it is an act of belief! If there was no belief, or no desire to believe, why bother questioning? There would simply be no reason to. It would be a waste of our precious time. To question then, is to desire understanding and meaning. Nothing wrong with that! 

So how then do you and I read the Bible? How do we continue in relationship with God when there is so much we don’t get and empathize with in the book? I suppose we need a little bit of faith, even just a tiny bit, to begin. Faith is that thing we can’t see but might be able to feel in our hearts but is also something we choose to have. It’s like saying ‘I don’t know about that but I’m going to trust that one day I will and that it will be good for me’. ‘But how do I even get to have faith, I don’t even know where to begin?’ 

Faith is found, seeded, and grown in hope. Hope comes from trusting a God who promises life and blessings to those who believe in him. We hope that the good stuff in the bible is true, we trust that it is. Trust is made manifest in the questions, trials, tribulations, joy and goodness that can be found in relationship with God (all those times we can see that God worked the good into our lives). Trust grows over time and relationship with God comes from time spent together with him. That’s time spent in thought, prayer and reading his word (and other writings that encourage you). Time given to thinking though God’s purposes and meanings. Wrestling over the purpose, meaning, and character of a God who stood by as the Israelites slaughtered thousands, means that you haven’t given up, you haven’t lost faith in God, it means that you desire peace in your heart over something that doesn’t sit right. And it doesn’t. I admit it. The slaughter of children never sits right. But then I wonder, why doesn’t it sit right? It seems like many ancient cultures killed children in war. In fact, many ancient cultures sacrificed their own children to gods (Deuteronomy 12:31b). Is there a difference in how we see children, or how we value life now in comparison to then? Yes. There is. Obviously.  

The reaction of many of governments around the world to bring their nation’s economy to a standstill in favor of protecting it’s citizens during this Covid-19 pandemic reveals something striking: life is valued. It is valued more than the billions of dollars lost. It is valued more than winning the next election. A world at standstill, in lockdown, in isolation to save the lives of people indicates more than strongly that we are valued. I am valued. You are valued. It seems that governments are acting in good faith that there is no financial loss that could be considered worse than losing one life in this pandemic. In Australia, where I live, to date, 97 people have died. The dollars spent to protect them – it’s not countable. So what happened? How is it that we read the Old Testament with such disdain, disgust and interrogation when ancient cultures and it’s celebrities, including King David (the most celebrated Israelite (human) king), read it with acceptance and understanding? They even agreed with it! So, what changed us? The life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ did. It was he who offered a profoundly different way of thinking and living. In doing this, he also brought about a different way of relating to God. 

When Jesus was ministering in Israel, the nation was under the command of the Roman Empire. The Roman Empire, famous to many of us now for it’s architecture and Gladiators, waged war for centuries with millions of people across land and sea. It was also a people who, if a baby was not wanted, it was put into the street to be ‘exposed’ to the elements so that it would die. Children were not valued anywhere. Was it shocking for people to witness Jesus reprimanding his disciples for attempting to stop children approaching him? And when Jesus placed his hands on the children’s heads and blessed them saying ‘Let the Children come…For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to those who are like these children’ (Matthew 19:14), doesn’t this infer that Jesus placed value and equality of the lives of children, on all of us? Similarly, when Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman (Samaritans were despised by the Jewish people), and at such length, he broke all social custom and treated her as equal. Most distinctly, when he commanded that we should love our neighbor (Mark 12:31) he said something that no one before him had done. The act of loving our neighbor as ourselves makes us equal in ways that the Old Testament did not do. It is this, this idea, that our western civilization, our world has profited from. For now, in our hearts, we abhor murder, rape, war, and all evil treatment to our neighbors and children alike. We are a changed civilization. Our perspective has been altered and it is for this reason that we have difficulty reading, understanding, and empathizing with parts of the Old Testament. But that’s a good thing! We are not meant to empathize, how could we, we view things in the light of Christ. We’re the lucky ones. We have an enormous benefit of seeing the story played out in God’s word. The ancient Israelites did not, they only knew the beginning of the story. For that’s what the Bible is, it is a story, it is history, as in HIS story, describing how God plans to bless all nations through the birth, death, and resurrection of his Son.

Depending on where we fit in story, in that timeline, we will all view things differently and have many different and similar questions. The more I read the Bible, the more I can see one thing in particular common to all peoples at all times: God is there and waiting to be found by those who seek him. So ask, think, ponder, doubt, talk to others, and even celebrate about what you think it all means. Thinking, meditating, questioning and seeking is a privilege – a God given one. What question is on your mind? 

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

Matthew 6:33 NLT

The Israelites in their wilderness saw God, they saw his incredible miracles and they still doubted. I don’t see God, is he talking to me at all?

Three weeks ago I began reading the books of Exodus and Deuteronomy. Aside from skimming over the details for the building and presentation of the Arc of the Covenant and the Tabernacle, I read it as closely as I could. I underlined, I made notes, I asked questions, and I discussed it with a person who knows the scriptures better than most (my mother). I wasn’t surprised by the violence; ancient cultures are known to have been barbaric. The strangeness of the plagues God used to expel his people from Egypt didn’t astonish me for I have known this story since childhood however, I found myself in awe of the constant complaints and failure of the Israelites. I came to understand that Exodus and Deuteronomy are not only about how God rescued his people from slavery, it is a record of how the Israelites kept getting it wrong. And in their failure, this record stands as example of God’s perfect and loving grace. 

I was dumbstruck to learn that within days of fleeing Egypt many Israelites (or Hebrews as they were known as at the time) doubt God’s deliverance and wish to return to slavery for ‘its better to be a slave in Egypt than a corpse in the wilderness’ (Ex 14:12). I could not believe that even after they witness the extraordinary parting of the red sea, experience God providing care, food and water for them in the wilderness, and seeing God’s daily guidance and protection manifest in a pillar of cloud in the day and a pillar of fire at night, they still doubt! Can you believe that before the first year is out they even take their jewelry and form a carved idol, which they then celebrate with a big party declaring that idol to be the god who brought them out of Egypt? (Ex 32:1-8) How did these people forget him so quickly? Did they have amnesia? 

In 2020, thousands of years after these events, it’s easy to judge the Israelites. They had physical proof that God was with them! They witnessed miracle after miracle! They were guided daily by God who even went ahead of them and chose the best campsites for them to dwell in (Duet 1: 32-33), but they still didn’t trust the Lord God! And here we are in May 2020 never having seen, or likely to ever see, anything remotely like this, yet we are still asked to put our trust in him? They had it so easy! So much easier than us. God appeared to them, time and time again, but there are probably millions of Christians today who don’t even believe that God has ever, or will ever, communicate with him. To him, he’s a distant God, not an interventional God, but one still worth believing him. When comparing us to the Israelites at the time of the Exodus with a God that so obviously showed up, it is difficult to comprehend their mistrust of him. Worse, when God after a short time takes them to the Promised Land and tells them to enter it, they refuse in fear. They still do not trust him. Their failure in this resulted in another forty years in the wilderness!

I wonder, what would my belief have looked like if I was among the Israelites? Would I have given my jewelry to be melted down and made into an idol? Would I have failed at the tests God gave them? Tests that God had already provided the answer for? What about you? Do you think you would have trusted him? When overlooking for the first time the land that God had promised to give them, all they had to do was enter and take it, instead they let their own fear and worry consume them. By not trusting and obeying God, they missed the blessings he had prepared for them and they were ordered back into the desert to learn again what God had already taught them – ‘Trust me and I will provide for you’.

Covid-19 and the enforced isolation that comes with it, feels (and looks) like a wilderness. It is unknown, it is mundane, it is a place a fear and loneliness, it is something all of us wish to turn away from. But I must wonder are God’s blessings, his provision and his very presence in this Coronavirus desert too? This may be a time of unprecedented change, worry, sickness and grief (don’t forget boredom too) but it can also be a time of trust, peace, faith and understanding. We may not have pillars of clouds or fire to guide us but God has already provided guidance for us in his word. 

The bible isn’t a book about God’s commands, punishment and law, it’s a book expressing God’s grace and unfailing love to a people who continually failed him. It’s a book that can be a light upon our path as we walk through these days. It is a book with a personal message of hope for you and I, if we decide to take the time to read it. The more I read it, the more I can see that God’s plan was, and will always be, good for those who put their trust in him. What will you discover?

 The wilderness the Israelites experienced destroyed many of them. My prayer for you and I is that this wilderness called Covid-19 and all the stress and discomfort it brings will not be a time of failure to trust, or a failure to hope or a lack of wanting to seek God, but rather a time of growth and blessing as we search for and rest in his comfort and guidance…as we seek him – the God who wants us to remember the miracles he did to rescue his people, knowing that one day when our time to be on this earth would come about that we would be blessed by what he did then.  I wonder, was King David thinking of the Exodus when he wrote Psalm 25:6 ‘Remember O Lord, your compassion and unfailing love, which you have shown from ages past.’ His love, the same love that dragged a stubborn people out of slavery so that he could honor his promise and bless them, is the love that God still has for his people, all people today.  Just now to trust him. 

“Remember how the Lord your God led you through the wilderness for these forty years humbling you and testing you to prove your character, and to find out whether or not you would obey his commands…He did it to teach you that people do not live by bread alone; rather, we live by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord” 

Deuteronomy 8:2-7 NLT

Is the rising panic I feel in my chest anxiety, or could it be the virus? I’m so worried…the entire world is worried. What should I as a christian be thinking?

The Lord is my shepherd. Psalm 23

As if the fear, paranoia, and anxiety surrounding catching the Coronavirus is not enough, today thousands, if not millions, of people face unemployment, piling bills, and rising mortgage pressure. How are we to get through this? People around the world are likely to be thinking ‘Is the rising panic I feel in my chest anxiety, or could it be the virus?’ Worry, paranoia, fear, sickness, and superstition threaten to derail humanity. What should we as Christians be doing? What should we be thinking? Some of us may be questioning the strength of our own faith and wondering how to appear strong for family and friends?’ 

Today, you and I have some decisions to make. We can give in to worry. We can give in to fear. We can continue to obsess over the news and the latest Covid-19 figures from around the world. We can allow yourselves to be lost in Facebook or momentarily entertained by celebrities on social media or you and I can take pause to seek what it is that God is wanting to say to us in this moment.  There is opportunity for us here in this deeply uncertain time, to claim the very certainly that God offers. One day soon this virus will be beaten, one day soon we will all go back to work, and one day soon we will be able to buy more toilet rolls. However, if and I you don’t listen, if you and I don’t seek, if you and I don’t desire, we will miss what God wants us to feel, to learn and do right now. It’s up to you. It’s up to me. God’s promises to those who trust in him are abundant in his word.

Let’s look at Psalm 23, ‘The Lord is my shepherd, I have all that I need…’ This is one of the most well-known and quoted chapters of the bible. It is often read aloud at funerals and memorial services. Because of this, we associate the verses with a type of solemnity. Heads bow and listeners wait for the reading to be over as it sounds almost like a religious rite. Often the Psalm seems to be the most appropriate thing to say during such grief when nothing seems to makes sense. However, the darkest valley, or the shadow of death, makes up only 1/6 of the chapter! The rest of the chapter is teeming with life and promises. It also describes a God who is committed to tending his people. 

God as the shepherd.  A shepherd devotes themselves to looking after his ‘flock’. In this case his flock are his believers, the people who decide to follow him. God as the shepherd also provides for all your needs, gives you rest when you need it and leads lead you into nourishing places. And, as you bring honor to his name, he will guide you along the right path. The promises continue: He comforts you in mourning and dark places, he is your safety and protection, walking beside you and longing for you to ‘cast your fear on him’, all the while urging you on to righteousness. He also even prepares a wonderful and edifying feast for you in the presence of your enemies, when things are desperately awful. He honors your faithfulness, and blesses you abundantly.  It is certain that his goodness and unfailing love will pour out on you for all the days of your life. That’s what the Psalm says. It is a chapter of the bible with profound sentiment for all the days of your life, not just the valleys. Though it is the valley where we feel and cry out for him the most.  And it is obvious that right now, the entire world is in a valley. Can we turn ourselves to God? Can you and I find him in his word? If this Psalm can say so much, what else can be found in his word? 

Is there something that God wants to say to you, to me today? As the world reels from the shock, death, and economic disaster that is Covid-19, is there something that God wants you and I to learn, to do, in this moment? How do you think God wants you to feel as the entire world shakes in fear? Should us christians be afraid, irritated, angry, worried? Or should we be calm, rational and unafraid? Should we feel protected as the Pslam indicates? And could we feel, dare I say it, joyful? The shepherd offers such things, if we want them.

In the Old Testament book of 1 Kings, chapter 19 describes an encounter the prophet Elijah had  with the living God. First the Lord passes by him and a mighty windstorm hits the mountain Elijah was standing on. After the wind there was an earthquake, then there was a fire but the Lord God was not in any of these things. Rather, after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. Here, here was the Lord, and speaking gently with him. In all the noise of today, God’s whisper is there. Add to that, we have the Bible where he makes his character, his plan and his promises made known to us daily, fresh every morning…just now to read it. But it’s hard, I know. 

During this pandemic, I have been encouraged by reading the Bible daily in many ways. And as I have been encouraged, I began this blog to be an encouragement to you. I know the website is very basic. I am an amateur in this. This is my fourth post! Thank you to those people who have read it, I really hope that it is providing reason and inspiration to your own thoughts. If you like what I’m doing, and where I’m going then please follow along. After I learn a little about website design, I hope to have a fancy page for you with other sources of biblical knowledge and inspiration and a section for comments and interaction but for now, this will have to do. Again, please know that I’m not a theologian, I’m not an expert, I am just an average person trying to make sense in all of this just like you. My prayer for you is that God provides you with peace and understanding as you seek him in his word. #bethelight

Coronavirus inspired me to read The Bible (and to make this blog).

In March 2020 the novel virus, Coronavirus Sers Covid-19, changed the world. Countries around the world closed their borders, stopped working, and sent their people into isolation to deter the spread of the potentially deadly virus. As the virus took hold, thousands of people lost their lives and hundreds and thousands more were sick. Economies were at a standstill. 

On March 16 my husband, John, returned to Australia from a five day trip to Los Angeles.  That day, any arriving passenger from overseas was ordered to remain at home in quarantine for two weeks. Arriving home, John coughed a little and felt rundown. Four days later I had a headache. John was declared Covid-19 positive on the 23rd of March. My results came back positive on the 28th. Rough days. 

I began writing this blog, my Counter Covid-19 attempt to Be the Light to a worried and isolated at the beginning of March when the news of virus was spreading faster than the virus itself (at least in Australia). I managed to write four posts before I no longer felt well enough to read or write.  It was a long sickness and it has been a long recovery process. I had a slight cough that I could not shake. Finally on the 4th April both the Public Health department and NSW Health declared me officially recovered. I’m a Covid survivor. I had no previous illness or concerns and this virus knocked me flat. It was the sickest I have ever been in my life. I did not go to hospital. I suppose I am one of the lucky ones. John was sick too but in some ways I was worse. Now however, I seem to be more recovered than he, meaning I can run a little without having to catch my breath. He will need to work up to this. 

No doubt, these are extraordinary days. We are all living through an unprecedented moment in modern history. Our daily lives are greatly affected as we all wait in isolation distanced from our family and friends. ‘Social distancing’, effective from spreading the virus, does seed suspicion of every person encountered in a grocery store or on the footpath. This suspicion, ‘Does that person have the virus’ , breeds mistrust in our families, friendship and communities yet as a population we are being asked to place unquestioned faith and trust in our leaders, police and governments.  Freely and readily freedoms were given up as people stopped working and going about their daily lives in the hope that someone one day will come up with a vaccine so that life can ‘go back to normal’. As a people we trust that those freedoms will be returned to us. All around the world people wait for a better tomorrow.

Believing in God’s word, God’s story, as the beginning and end of everything, I wonder what is He wanting us to learn at this time? What lessons, what grace, what blessing, what change, what warning is there for us in this moment? What, if we wanted to listen, would he be whispering to us in this new found quietness we find ourselves in? For surely, in between our zoom sessions and Netflix binges, it is quiet. ‘Be still’, He once said. ‘Be still and know that I am God’. (Psalm 46:10)

So that’s what I am going to attempt to do. I am going to read my Bible and see that if, in these times, God does speak to me (and you) through it. I confess, I’ve read a lot of the Bible already and most of it hasn’t made much sense or given impetus for further thought but that was then, this is now. I am much more interested. Things change. Life obviously changes. But what I am pretty sure doesn’t change is the Bible, or the character of God. He remains the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow and He promises that while the ‘earth remains there will be planting and harvest, cold and night, summer and winter, day and night’. (Genesis 8:22)

This time will end. There will be an end to our isolation. There will be a day to get back to work. This coronavirus disaster will one day be a time to remember. What then, will you remember it for? There are opportunities here for this to be a time of generosity, love, compassion and learning. There are opportunities here to sow seeds that produce marvelous fruits of the spirit. There are opportunities here to look for God and for Him to be found by you. There are opportunities here for you to trust and grow in faith. God promises good things to those who love and follow him. There are opportunities here to change your life and the lives of those you love for the better. What will you do? Who will you become? Will this be a time of growth or a time of lament. The choice is yours. As always, the choice is yours. As for me and my family, we choose to serve the Lord. (Joshua 24:15)

Please know that I am not a theologian, rather just someone thinking through the Bible and please afford some grace to my writing. I confess I struggle to share my thoughts in writing, I err and um and ah over every written word. I have very little confidence in my ability to clearly express myself however, as these are extraordinary times, I will attempt to explain my Bible studies in the hope that someone, just one person even, will be encouraged by it.